my mom got me one of those little calendar planner things and i'm getting in the habit of writing a brief synopsis of activities that I've done for each day. kind of helps me realize that though it doesn't feel like I do a lot, I'm actually getting a bunch of things accomplished and having fun.

still filling out application after application. walmart, home depot, target, price chopper, alabama school districts for sub positions, us bank, best buy, the list will go on. and on. until I get a job.

still haven't gotten the cell phone I bought 3 weeks ago off ebay. messaged the person and they said they'll go to the post office and figure out what happened, though I'm not so sure how this is going to turn out. worse comes to worse, ebay'll give me a refund because they're awesome like that. buyer protection ftw! [but still sooo annoying that i haven't received the phone I really reallly wanted]

tried indian food for the first time ever today. I liked it
now I just have to try Thai food!

went bowling with Kevin and Brooks. we were doing pretty terrible, but still had fun. ddr! and uuuno

everyone just wants to be loved

so tired.
ummm lots of studying and writing and stuff to do for the next week.
lots.
wooooooooooo!

don lockwood shook my hand
lol, watching singing in the rain for the second time was great, especially from the front row.

tangled was pretty good in 3d, but perfectly acceptable without it.

dad and I went to einstein bagels this morning
church was great.
need to do some more highlighting
waldo pizza was artery-clogging good.

can't believe I only have a few more classes left before the end of the semester.

last night I went to bed at 8. fell asleep a bit after 9. woke up at 3.
paralyzed. (thanks sociology for your video on abuse, as a result I dreamed that some guy was drinking and then was going to beat me with a baseball bat. that was not pleasant.)
took me forever to fall back asleep, at least another hour.
then woke up at 6:40.
woo for waking up early haha.
lets see if I can get myself to wake up early tomorrow...
monday, here I come!

Stupid quote of the day:
"Fight obesity! Punch a fat kid"
while browsing facebook profiles.

Got my NT in the mail

Watched Anne of Green Gables.
Love AoGG, but this time around it was just too depressing.

Sleep is good.

my feet are cold.
One homeless night was great.
oh, did my personal monologue for acting class.
Blanked out, but moved on pretty well, sort of kind of maybe some people didn't notice even.
I think some people had a ... not happy reaction to it, meaning, they didn't realize that I hate feeling like I'm not able to speak, that I feel like I'm a boring person not worth listening to.
Nicci was fantastic and sort of squinting at me and cocking her head and then said something about I'm freakin awesome St. Germain and I'm beautiful and interesting and that my eyebrows were awesome and I look like I have some secret, like I'm mysterious or something.
Mark's?
Oh my goodness, he's... seriously, he's so ... just... I can't even describe him, really.
He hoarse whispers.
He smacks his lips.
He makes stories, memories, everything come to life.
He's obnoxious, in a way that leaves you confused and in awe and a little ... anxious?
He told a story of going to a school and accidentally entering the girl's locker room while he was wandering closed off portions of the school. But you know what? After he was done I realized he never really finished the story, but I wasn't thinking about it as he came to a close because the way he ended it? It fell into a burst of emotion, him punching himself in the leg, rocking back and forth in the chair, practically sobbing, and then falling off, huddled on the ground, curled in a fetal position, and then became silent.
Everyone sat there, some stunned, some laughing at his stunt.
He lay on the ground for more than a minute. A girl laughed hysterically, said he made her day or life or something, and then when he still hadn't moved, she poked him.
Eventually he got up, wiped his eyes, and pushed his chair back that he had been using as a prop back to its place and we continued monologues.
the way he performs, you don't know whether to take him seriously or laugh, and some people choose one and I, in a way, choose both.
I never know what's real, what's really a part of him and what's not.
He's a stargirl, but, not.
A piece of me wants to stalk him one day.
or, really, make a documentary of him.
really.
just, footage of him acting, of him being... the person he is to us, the acting class.
He's so insanely fascinating.
Some people, they're just so incredible. Sometimes I develop crushes on people I find fascinating, but in this case, I don't think i really like like him as much as I find him an... abundance of talent and mystery that I want to keep track of.
Now I have this somewhat terrible feeling of almost doing the opposite of personifying something... turning him into an idea, a concept, a thing, rather than a person. which is a dangerous thing to do. People are people.
and that's my story for today.

blehhhhh.

I'm tired after a long day of touring the campus.
Started enrolling in classes and got my student id.
unfortunately I have a ton of paperwork and I'm still not sure how the whole money side of this is going to work out.
But I decided on a major (psychology) and we'll see what I decided to minor in, possibly english, but I'm still looking at my options.

Instead of eating good food and drinking lots of water I've been eating a lot of sugar and gatorade.
Probably not the best way to get better.
But at least I'm going to go to bed now!

I think I did alright on my sociology test. have to admit I was studying up to the point where the lady giving the test told us we were starting. Thank God for Lauren, who told me how the Labeling theory's theorist started with an L (Edwin Lemert) -- 1 min before the test. That helped me remember that Differential Association is the other Edwin -- Sutherland
Haha, just realized I think I spelled Lemert on the test wrong. Ah well.

Watched a video of... Albert Ellis talking to someone about her depression before Christmas time. It was actually kind of boring.

So, performed the importance of being earnest & I messed it up a little, but not as bad as the last duo thing I did.

I was not feeling good. Went to work, baked cinnamon rolls, worked (classes combined today so it was a little crazy and then it started raining). Went home, went straight to bed, then I decided I'd go with dad to pick up pizza, and then I had a couple slices then went back to bed.

Not sure when I fell asleep. Woke up at like 1:30 in the morning. Then went back to sleep.
Congested, throat hurts, tired, head hurts.
Not sure if I have a temperature, but I don't feel like checking.