tutoring
book store
coffee shop
paint
furniture
assistant
music store
write
movie
sing

This week was been especially stressful.
Boss is back.
Seems like the workload has doubled as a result.
Asks me to repeatedly process orders when I’m supposed to be getting off work.
Too much to do.
Even with the wonderful help of one of my coworkers I still feel like I can barely take it.
The customers/calls and sheer number of problem orders make me feel overwhelmed and frustrated.

Rained today.
Hadn’t seen rain in months.
Didn’t get to feel the rain though, only got a few glimpses because of work.
Get up around 7:30/8. Don’t get home until 11 hours later.
This job is sucking away my life.

Was trying to actively do/think about things that make me happy.
Burned a CD. Really enjoyed the car drive in that aspect.
Made coffee. Loved it. Was gone too quickly.
Didn’t have time to put new pictures on my work computer for the the screensaver.
Bought some more postcards from zazzle.
Trying to think of what to get Ashley for her birthday.
Need to get clothes.
Was productive enough this evening- groceries and folded laundry.
Still need to find a new job, especially if I’m going to be this miserable.
Thankful that tomorrow is Thursday.
Really want to go to the beach or movies.
Maybe this weekend. Though I don’t like dealing with people and those two places are awful crowded on the weekend.
Maybe tomorrow.
Doubtful though.

I’m really down right now.
Just … a tired sort of sad.
Not end-of-the-world, freaking out, majorly depressed sort of sad.
A discouraged, unhappy feeling.
Can’t seem to shake the negative stuff.

Still a little concerned about money.
It’s taking a long time to recover and the expenses seem to add up so quickly.

Check engine light turned on yesterday.
Turned off today after I got gas.
Need to do oil and check air.
Brakes probably.
Still have to register my car.
Going to get in trouble with the state.
It’s lovely that I have AZ insurance/AAA/drivers license and a Missouri license plate/registration.
And I live in California.
If only it wasn’t so crowded, expensive, and had business hours that aren’t very efficient for my work schedule.

Sleep time. Can’t sit up anymore.

Can breathe through nose again.
Throat is feeling better; only slightly sore.
What does this mean? I can taste!!! I can eat without despising consuming tasteless food!!!

So, I went on a kind of eating rampage.
Had a late lunch at 3:30- Chicken Margherita with Balsamic Vinaigrette sauce (one of my favorite frozen meals from healthy choice).
Came home, had some teriyaki chicken with rice and squash.
Then 2 mini kit kat packages.
A granola bar.
And a package of swiss rolls.

Needless to say I’m very full.
It was so delicious.
Now I think I’m going to go into a food (most likely sugar) coma….

Had coffee (starbucks doubleshot energy drink) today and that kept me wired.
Now I’m crashing.

Really want to exercise more.
Hard to do so when the company closes at 6 and I usually get off late around 5:45.

I’ve been feeling really alone.
When Xanga announced the changes they were making and the impending doom of shutting down, I was heartbroken.
Today I typed in Xanga.com not expecting to see a functional blogging website that wouldn’t force me to pay for their service.
I was very pleasantly surprised.
It’s definitely different. But for me, Xanga is home.
There’s no where else I’d rather be.

I keep on coming back here even though it’ll be gone.

This is the last Xanga entry I will ever write.
This website won’t exist in a month from now.
It still deserves to be written.
I owe it to myself.
This is for you, Katy.

In some ways I feel as if I’ve grown tremendously.
Then I look in the mirror and realize I’m still a goofy, judgmental control freak with a messy life.
I’ve never been and never will be perfect.
My glaring imperfections make me cringe.
They also make me halfway smile and shake my head.
I still strive to be a beautiful, kind human being.
I’m having to relearn to love myself and life every day.
I’ve struggled with countless conflicts and I know they have just begun.

This used to be my outlet.
A form of communication with people I knew and strangers I have never met.
It was also a way for me to look back on my life and the people who were a part of it.
I’ll never stop journaling or blogging. It has taught me so much about myself and others.
Xanga has allowed me to connect with people on a level deeper than I could have ever anticipated.
I am going to miss being here. Miss the people I connected with through Xanga that slipped away. I’m going to miss just the sight of the Xanga logo on my internet browser.

Now, before I have to say goodbye, I want to thank you.
Thank you Xanga for being a part of my life for nine years.
Thank you Xanga community for your friendship, support, interesting and influential blogs, and opportunities.
Thank you for the good and bad times.
They have changed me in a way that I cannot express.
I love you.
Forever and always.

I want to make music boxes.

People ask me why I’m minoring in English and sometimes I ask myself the same question. Love literature, but the classes/material is driving me crazy!

Midterm exams are finally over. Now I just have to whip out a summary paper for this crazy novel I read for BWW, read the last 100 pages of Mary Barton, consider looking into what I’m supposed to Brit Lit and CBI tomorrow, and try to hold on to the sliver of sanity I have left.

It’s gorgeous outside. Can’t wait to enjoy the nice weather a little more than the 10 minute walks I have before/after classes.

I had this layout “hiding” in my look in feel between < ! – -  – - >
Though I like it I think I’ll start looking for a new one.
It’s been a long time since I’ve given my xanga a makeover.

A day of pajamas, Gilmore Girls, and ice cream.
Perfect.